i must have looked manic searching all over the castle for the manuscript that held captive the last words of count dracula i knew they were mine to find even in the dimness of night because the ooze of centuries can’t take away the phrases everyone needs to know trump looked for his most meaningful phrases all over the white house mar a lago the former environs of everyone he’d ruined the throbbing ecstatic insides of his cellphone the slimy grit of his intestinal mind but he couldn’t find them at all and decided they must have been abducted but they still clung around more real than the statement of a fictional vampire bright day or dim night in the pipes leading from his golden toilet to the soft muddle of his dismal mind and back again flushed over and overfrom Trump Tics (2020)
Monday, December 2, 2024
Plumbing's Revenge
Saturday, November 30, 2024
The Dictator's Radio
the coffin that sleep contained
a car buzzes by like its eyes are closed
i remember the obvious
i hear something like a broadcast voice
i remember the dream last night
that told me to wake up
that predicted this morning in terrifying clarity
my eyes ache from the shrill light of dawn
eyes drift down the sidewalk over
paper cups of coffee let’s hope
that bloodshot eyes will remember themselves
the dictator’s radio hangs from your ears
each step cold as if made in ice water
your shoes coffins your destination frozen
from Trump Tics (2020)
Monday, November 25, 2024
Donald's Pot Luck
donald trump took a bag of poisoned potato chips to the potluck the bottoms of his shoes sucked all the colors out of the carpet making it as white as a k k k hood meanwhile his minions added a layer of nazi-made bricks to the walls of the house now that i’m here he pronounced this event is yuge everybody is happy but he was the only one there because everyone else had fled as the bricks leaned inward and even the roof he’d held up with hot air started to collapsefrom Trump Tics (2020)
Friday, November 22, 2024
Astronomer of Truth
it comes every day the inexact night when the stars cluster more approximately than the constellations they taught you to see other days you think you remember as so much different from this one and the dog down the street should have told you but someone maybe him has been moving his bones around to where that future won’t find them your teachers should have told you your apple should have told you the flute that leads the dawn should have told you the stars themselves should have told you they’re all liars and now you’re looking at them wondering what they have to teach you nextfrom Trump Tics (2020)
Wednesday, November 20, 2024
Plea
almost toxic
the kind of stuff taxis roll by
my lawn is covered in make believe right now
statue leans meaningfully
on her hand as trucks roll past her
tires that have been everywhere
lend scent to a dog’s sense of meaning
in the middle of all this there’s a dictator
who is so evil and powerful that he cannot
be taken as anything but literal
he lives in a mansion three thousand miles from here
but even his grin affects everything
to deny this is to chance
shortening your life
and everyone else’s
by decades
from Trump Tics (2020)
Monday, November 18, 2024
Outside the Gas Station
last night i dreamt
that i was leaning up against a gas station wall
the stars spun themselves into a pattern
that formed the skeleton of piltdown man
i felt all of my energy driven out of my veins
like blood seeking refuge in nothingness
the new sky stood almost fictional
like the moment between pulses
when you feel the possibility of death
bones even bones that never existed
even bones described as ancestral and sacred
by the mouth of a petty dictator
the stars seemed dried as dessicated wood
i wonder if my very own bones still glisten
if the world still pumps alive outside of sleep
from Trump Tics (2020)
Friday, November 15, 2024
His Welcoming Smile
when the fat dictator smiles why do we all feel like skeletons gathered around a desolate fire that will gradually dry the last of life from us?from Trump Tics (2020)
Wednesday, November 13, 2024
Catullus Thinks of Donald Trump
"Spaniards/ use their morning urine/ for tooth wash." -- Catullus
it doesn’t bother me at all
that you clean your teeth
with piss as orange as your hair
rome is a republic
clodia right now sits watching the street
waiting for me
by a window on the second floor of her husband’s mansion
she does not think of you
rome is a republic
here settled in my favorite seat
in an outdoor theater watching an awful play
about gods i barely believe in
i do not believe in you either
o one of puffy eyes and hair of rotted straw
that would shame a wild animal
or even a barbarian the true order of things
i do believe in that precludes you
who would turn crowds mindless enough to riot
before your games and after you came to power
who think that the world is made for yourself
while even my loves all of them
do not think it is made for me
so here i am watching some idiot on the theatre floor
instead of writing love poems to my clodia
she who may be the one who murders me
before i’m thirty before the name caesar
is anything but a family name
before anyone with orange skin and hair
of a texture that almost defines disease
seeks by his presence to defame the name
of anyone from any old roman family
rome is a republic
from Trump Tics (2020)
Monday, November 11, 2024
Within Sight
i wonder how to keep alive in political fogs like this try the bright eyes within clouds you need to remember your own bright eyes that they can live like fire in grief for you to be able to seefrom Trump Tics (2020)
Saturday, November 9, 2024
The Election of Death
how could you even pretend you had life on your mind when you voted for this guy? atmosphere that is deep and inscrutable humidity of your own anger your own tearsfrom Trump Tics (2020)
Thursday, November 7, 2024
Post-Election Fog 2024
windows blindfolded waiting for the execution even the sky is closed in fog the music on the radio is turned so low that no notes can get through there was an election light lost a ball of dead lead sits unsighted where there used to be sunA version of this poem appeared in Trump Tics (2020)
Sunday, October 20, 2024
Exchange
last night barry i saw you walk past the glass walls of the diner and in through the door as i talked with my boss who excused himself as you and i recognized each other you still looked twenty-three after these thirty-seven years yellow shirt brown jacket cowboy hat and the hair still almost yellow and delicate where it was bound in a ponytail you nodded got a coffee sat at the table where the boss had sat you were still twenty-three clear skin clean eyes robust self-assurance i was sixty and imagined myself desiccated i couldn’t imagine what to say to you we used to talk for hours together you sprawled and set your legs parallel to the table played with your mustache and took another sip been years you said here i was at the edge of old age and what had i really accomplished since i was young? here you were still the age you were when we met all future all coolness all good humor knowing that the gods still held you as their darling what could i say to you? what could you say to me? i finished my coffee and said i was due elsewhere over due really and you nodded and put your hat on the table i said good to see you then walked out the door you were still at the table snow crunched under my feet from Yew Nork (2014)
Wednesday, October 2, 2024
Epaulet
i caught sight and was on my way the building looked familiar appearing on doors and guys zones of affluence and poverty say my old neighborhood never looked so prosperous restaurant at then too store across the valley looking small crowds in their twenties it’s no longer the house of fire i remember laundromat and a small motel asleep calling it lunch my consciousness is made up of storefronts i go to a different one every night the haze seems static that way i like to stay there i stay on the same block for the rest of my life buses go by about three blocks from here my passport crawls up my sleeve to my shoulderfrom Yew Nork (2014)
Wednesday, July 31, 2024
My Ripped Shirt
a herd of crabgrass an elephant snake sneeze a philosophy of parthenogenesis from the collected giggle in your pocket a collusion of laundromats that the sneeze not be narrow that its path be epic and tropical that the word laugh be named specifically as law and that your satchel be not named chicken soup no murinated mountebank minnesinger imaginary amphibian hitchhiker entanglements of the liberty of roadmaps open decanter of the dilemma of mixed certainties let me sneeze as cosmically as i want log fossil cremation blue star octopus telegraph jibber jabber conflagration of hot work bench sweat sunset lawn chair of mouse and rat torsos trepidation of false furs at the counter of dimestore truth hilarious explosion of tea kettles at the last word of the gettysburg address the crown princess’ ruffles at the furthest edge of her dynasty’s solar system these petroglyphs are written in english ants swimming in fossilized water you’ve been singing them since babyhood my ripped shirt is having an anxiety attack flags wave wildest when wildflowered apes are waving them into their armpits and declaring it everybody’s national holiday as fireworks invent themselves out of sawdust and castle towers spurt glory openmouthed excitement and lust are mere curves on your roadmap their voice beyond idiocy their truth beyond believingfrom Yew Nork (2014)
Thursday, July 18, 2024
Armweary Traveler
the statue of liberty is much less impressive if people wear hats in front of you those eyes that remember everything that happened from the point of some choice that you made when you were twenty-two you the platform the laundry blesses you as it hangs across the torch and there you stand wearing california around your neck like an amulet it’s strange having california hanging from my neck now and it’s so huge you can’t move speaking those accents emotional threads wide as a treadmill obscuring every other direction then you’re big you’re supposed to choose then disappear the statue of liberty is much more impressed if you see it before it sees you then she looks then you think you’re so small you’re invisible so you carry coney island around in your pants pocket for your last day here she’ll spend her life in thrall to that image as you wave your torch in celebration and sink knee-deep in concrete and the statue keeps staring staring and blessed are the subways their clattered tempo slowing to become your heartbeat she’s been my friend most of the time since i’ve been back whatever of that beauty goes into your walk is worthwhile you’ve made your choice now you can’t get out of the way so please come back with me to my hotel room night doesn’t set here it made that decision when it first got out of college the city’s lights redefine night any time of the day and any day still sits still just west across the waterfrom Yew Nork (2014)
Friday, May 24, 2024
Moos
le t’sst art le aw ake with th e cows in theb ranch es the irs ong the hope that though they sing none of them lands on your shoulder theh opet hough that the ysing the ru mor sin the moo sic the mosaic chat terof it so perating sy stem lou den ough tos sing the moon the quiet relieved ex halations of birds such moos to hear it so lightly its vert i calm e ado wsfrom Yew Nork (2014)
Thursday, March 28, 2024
Fast as a New York Sonnet
down this horizonless sidewalk of coffee the buildings are supported by the doors of coffeehouses the sidewalk runs as fast as caffeine will carry it each step each stride each dance step its very own some day some say the free music will end and you’ll have to pay the piper for all the shoe soles you’ve worn out on these walks but you’ll only have to teach the piper a new tune noah’s ark landed in washington square park it landed there over and over again at least every five or ten years it landed but lots of times it rains and washes the old footprints away people forget about that even with coffee that’s why this place is so wonderfulfrom Yew Nork (2014)
Monday, January 29, 2024
Notes for Auto Bio
i take my pasts each
examine them
each in a sepia of its own dust
through which i can see
only when i look away
one was college natural but sometimes it stressed
once my father called me
a communist drug addict
and generations of hands came down
in the flick of a half second’s time
and decades later i found myself asking
exactly whose political mechanics i’d betrayed
and how many of his own ancestors
my father was betraying
in another i slogged on through thirty years
of full-time work on the gravity of nothingness
my fingerprints are all over its surface
but the box seems completely hollow
all but the details grown over
by layers of mechanical dust
seen through the stone age of my imagination
as on the mechanical back of someone else’s android hand
and the lifetimes of memories of people i’ve loved
of your lives entangled with mine
so many of you freed now
in the mechanics of what could be called fate
but is only a weird form of temporal physics
and my rage that time’s just another machine
with my and everybody else’s living meat
throbbing like pain momentarily held within it
from Auto Bio (2010)
Tuesday, January 2, 2024
Listen
listen to me i’ll listen to you i’ll try to listen to everyone who isn’t me if you will too so know then that we are all different joints on different fingers of the same hand and that there’s another hand as well that we have never heard of so listen listen if you speak i will listen so that both hands can speak and listen and move as two hands togetherWritten in late 2023
Saturday, December 2, 2023
Invitation (for Judy)
so walk with me along this ocean’s edge the island springs and rocks along the beachfront the cold wind houses noises makes the long walk reminiscent of other seasons when flowers sprang with faces of bedeviled carnivores at war have you tasted the ice cream? smoky clouds still numb away the horizon quicksand and a sputtering ocean knick-knacks lined across the harbor to talk about dream is silly as steam evanescent in the warming weather someone has been bouncing bare toes on the beach someone has been making sea lion sounds at the hot dog stand someone has been celebrating weather by reinventing it a long leap for landmass and a lush dance of sand a trill a thrill a leap of words and bodies a reanimation of the whole soul hallelujah i love you sofrom Auto Bio (2010)
Monday, October 9, 2023
The Trip Back
a hurt youth face garments of open sky and laceration he was easier as an earthquake now he flew on outstretched arms of his own leather uncured and vulnerable history pacing itself in its own gold threads troubled unsaid the sign melodrama ape awakened and fake fits in the nursery alive as inside his ribs and take it as biography made uneasy tumbled when born but have always bartered steepness when chutes had already opened i call that beautiful because they wear their beginnings a child myself stop myself there the chide is father to the monkey wrench i was crying over a spillover of red ant stings people wrestle all night with their own angelsfrom Auto Bio (2010)
Sunday, August 27, 2023
The Sparrow at the Door (ChatGPT after Mary Oliver)
This poem isn't really mine. I generated it via by inputting the entire poem "The Mystery of the Dancing Windows" (which is also on this blog) into ChatGPT and asking for a poem in this format in the style of Mary Oliver. I didn't ask for rhyme or for the last stanza. I think that ChatGPT isn't as good at generating poetry as it is at generating fiction (see "The Eldritch Mariner" on my companion blog Things I've Done for Blood), so poets may be a little safer than prose writers from AI "writing". Although the prospect of hybrid written/generated work is possible. The Sparrow at the Door (ChatGPT after Mary Oliver) Beneath the tapestry of time's embrace, A sailor from a bygone age did stand, Knives like shadows, a creeping lace, Upon his leg, a touch from some strange hand. Windows joined the cosmic ballet, Dancing to the rhythms of the wind, A language only they could convey, In whispered tales that the stars pinned. An hourglass, an ancient voice, Sang an aria of grains so fine, Each note a choice, each moment a rejoice, In the symphony of hours' design. From plains, a sparrow's mystic flight, Badge and spurs, a tale to tell, A pizza's scent in the fading light, A messenger from some enigmatic dell. Detective's gaze on the cellphone's screen, Not for words or messages, but fleas to seek, Mysteries in tiny worlds unseen, In the digital realm, a puzzle to peak. "Ribbit, ribbit," the canary's call, Echoing through twilight's hush, A cryptic song that befalls, A chorus woven from nature's brush. The emperor, with robes so grand, Bows not to realm, but inner grace, A moment's gesture, a whisper in the land, A monarch's humble, silent space. Kumquat's revelation, humble and profound, Beneath its boughs, the earth does lie, Flat and still, beneath its sacred ground, A secret known only to the sky. Before the stadium of feathers, a scene unfolds, Detective's voice a compass true, In tales of knives and mysteries old, The case unraveled, the truth in view. In Mary Oliver's spirit, we explore, The sailor's journey, mysteries to embrace, Knives and windows, a symphony's lore, Nature's secrets revealed in gentle grace.
Saturday, August 26, 2023
The Mystery of the Dancing Windows (or Feed This into Your AI)
a medieval sailor finds that a parade of knives is creeping up his leg windows dance in response an hourglass sings an aria out of the plains just west of town a two-ton sparrow wearing a badge and silver spurs stops at the sailor’s door with a pizza a detective examines his latest cellphone for fleas ribbit ribbit calls the canary the emperor bows a kumquat discovers that the earth is flat especially under its tree the detective explains to a stadium full of feathers how the case was solved
Monday, July 31, 2023
Middle School
I i extend great days
encourage youngsters
to be required by state law
all students will not run in the hall
all students will salute the food in the cafeteria
all students will enjoy their rodent lives in the film that
every student will have a current
you will take this task seriously
all students will lock their happiness and joy
whenever asked to by faculty and staff
you will invite your mother and dad to
one’s education held in the auditorium in december and
the edge of a cliff may affect study materials
you are here to learn
II each student is furnished the bell in emergency
each student will also be a phone number
home rooms are assigned in the anticipation that
are the lockers located in the students
III never wear which will not conform
to average adult employment
never open an attitude of respect
for a tin can of other students
dissections continue
until school is dismissed
IV during the animal’s sleep
modification will be fully gloved
you are arousable
the walls of the room dissolve
to the hot wet inside of your ribcage
you do not need
to consult the principal or school counselor
you can hear the gentle breathing beside you
is also sleeping like you are
the side of an animal you cannot identify
its warmth radiates from you
V make it a point to know your counselor and dental appointments
a note from your guardian or parent or telephone
the note should include your upset stomach
VI zits are the flit gun wounds
of adult hormones!
grey is a mass of colors
their admixture is worshipful!
i hold your abrasions in my heart as useless
i chamber within myself
and volcanic explode in enthusiasm
your cardface temple crumbles
the hill on which it sat is one
character in a lifetime of players
all you taught me was wrong
all i learned i hope was true
i salute you as a rock i step over
all the rest of us
walking
onwards
from Auto Bio (2010)
Saturday, June 17, 2023
Business Art Sonnet
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